I stepped out of my comfort zone and entered the wide wide world of fabulous downtown clubbing and had so much fun. I was with my best friends and my sister and we decided to start wandering in a direction and find a club. What did we find? A Goth club - right, never knew we had one of those.
Let me tell you - that is the most fun that I might have ever had in a club - next to Ra in Las Vegas. What an experience and what an amazing time. The music was far better than any type of top 40 remix in a club, the people were much more laid back and kept to themselves. In my wildest dreams did I ever think I could go to a club, dance on the dance floor and not have some lame drunk guy rubbing up on me to dance thinking that I like it. No one bothered us, we just had fun - us girls - totally uninterrupted.
How amazing - right? No idea what you might walk in to and going beyond your comfort zone and look what you find - an amazing time with amazing friends.
Not to mention you get to say that you accidentally stumbled upon a goth club went in and had the time of your life till 3 am.
A.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Life Path
When people come back in to your life after so many years of being gone do you accept them? Do you take back the person you dated as a teenager because you have grown? Do you take back your best friend because all you needed was a break?
I think that I may just have to. It would be ironic to end up with the same person I dated 10 years ago. Why go through 10 years of bad dates and bad relationships to end up with the person that you dated so long ago? I can't deny it, he was my one and only love. I've never had anyone like him, I've never had feelings for anyone else like him, and I certainly would take no one else back like him. Yet here he is, back - and here to stay? Not sure. But, why not take one more chance?
And what about the best friend? I thought you stopped talking to people for a reason and you stuck to those reasons. Then again, maybe not. I've thought long and hard about this. And I think I have found the key.
We all have path's and journey's that we must take. No matter which path we take - we all have a life path and we only choose how we get there. Sometimes it's on a calm path and other times it's through the mountains.
I feel like life is exactly like the footprints quote. Even with people on your life. Sometimes they walk next to you and other times you have to journey it alone. They may be going around and you straight through but on the other side you still meet again.
People are truly in your life for a reason. Those that continue to be a part of it every few years is truly a blessing. To have people that can let a past lie where it lies and start out is truly a quality that does not always exist. So when you find it, hold on.
-A.
I think that I may just have to. It would be ironic to end up with the same person I dated 10 years ago. Why go through 10 years of bad dates and bad relationships to end up with the person that you dated so long ago? I can't deny it, he was my one and only love. I've never had anyone like him, I've never had feelings for anyone else like him, and I certainly would take no one else back like him. Yet here he is, back - and here to stay? Not sure. But, why not take one more chance?
And what about the best friend? I thought you stopped talking to people for a reason and you stuck to those reasons. Then again, maybe not. I've thought long and hard about this. And I think I have found the key.
We all have path's and journey's that we must take. No matter which path we take - we all have a life path and we only choose how we get there. Sometimes it's on a calm path and other times it's through the mountains.
I feel like life is exactly like the footprints quote. Even with people on your life. Sometimes they walk next to you and other times you have to journey it alone. They may be going around and you straight through but on the other side you still meet again.
People are truly in your life for a reason. Those that continue to be a part of it every few years is truly a blessing. To have people that can let a past lie where it lies and start out is truly a quality that does not always exist. So when you find it, hold on.
-A.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
3am
I see 3am almost every single morning. I wish that I could figure out why 3am is the magic number and what the heck wakes my up, but I have no idea. I'm a giant ball of stress majority of the time, I worry about money, I worry about my company, I worry about my house, my dogs and I need 36 hours in a day. I have a boyfriend, I worry about him to. I worry about the future, about us, about him waking up one day and breaking my heart. I worry that I'm kept in the dark and I worry that this is not real. I worry about getting married, I worry about never getting married, I worry about my car and I worry about my dad.
I see midnight every other night and sometime 5am. If I counted the number of consecutive hours I slept in a night it would be 2. No more, no less, just 2. Sometimes I want to give up on sleep and work some more, worry some more, drive somewhere and stare at the stars - ask God what his big plan is for me. I wish I knew, sometimes I think that I am destined for great, sometimes I feel like I'm going to die young. Some freak thing like I needed pie at 2am and I get hit by a car. Ya, I think of those things. Other times, I dream about me in 10 years, successful and teaching other young women how to follow their dreams and goals no matter what.
I seem to be too naive sometimes. I trust too easily and too quickly. I move too fast and believe everyone is genuine. Most of the time people are not, especially in business. I have had men want to help me - more for their own benefit. I get a boyfriend they no longer want to help me. They use business as leverage to meet me for lunch or dinner and usually waste my time. I think these associates are my friends, I trust them - then they want to date me. My most recent experience was with a programmer. After 9 months of working together I found out he was accessing my email, sabotaging my company and hindering it's growth. He stopped paying me and stopped calling me. The nightmare stories that you hear about people like this all came true.
What's wrong with people? That's my 5am thought. My 3am thoughts are usually money and projects and my midnight thought is fear of being alone. I wonder what it will take to truly move on and stop worrying so much.
I need to start living life.
I see midnight every other night and sometime 5am. If I counted the number of consecutive hours I slept in a night it would be 2. No more, no less, just 2. Sometimes I want to give up on sleep and work some more, worry some more, drive somewhere and stare at the stars - ask God what his big plan is for me. I wish I knew, sometimes I think that I am destined for great, sometimes I feel like I'm going to die young. Some freak thing like I needed pie at 2am and I get hit by a car. Ya, I think of those things. Other times, I dream about me in 10 years, successful and teaching other young women how to follow their dreams and goals no matter what.
I seem to be too naive sometimes. I trust too easily and too quickly. I move too fast and believe everyone is genuine. Most of the time people are not, especially in business. I have had men want to help me - more for their own benefit. I get a boyfriend they no longer want to help me. They use business as leverage to meet me for lunch or dinner and usually waste my time. I think these associates are my friends, I trust them - then they want to date me. My most recent experience was with a programmer. After 9 months of working together I found out he was accessing my email, sabotaging my company and hindering it's growth. He stopped paying me and stopped calling me. The nightmare stories that you hear about people like this all came true.
What's wrong with people? That's my 5am thought. My 3am thoughts are usually money and projects and my midnight thought is fear of being alone. I wonder what it will take to truly move on and stop worrying so much.
I need to start living life.
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